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EXAMPLES [11.06.
2025
]

SCENES

Bad News


Spending Time

- Character, Tatiana de la Paz


ENTRIES

Rants & More Rants


Beating Hearts, Baby


Private Thoughts for Private Growth


A Very Short and Thoughtless Me



NARRATIVES

Deadly Letter


Traitor




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BACKDATED: Narrative - January 12th, 2019 -- Traitor [01.14.
2019
]
OOC: Narrative - Monday, January 14th, 2019 - My Character [info]jaxrspencer My character was picked for retaliation for his sleeping with the enemy's daughter plot in a motorcycle gang. The narrative is the plot he was given played out.
Originally posted in his journal ))


TRAITOR )

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Example Journal Entry - My Character [info]tatianafdlp [11.20.
2018
]
OOC: Originally posted in my character's journal))


A Very Short and Thoughtless Me )

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Example Journal Entry - My Character [info]tatianafdlp [11.20.
2018
]
OOC: Originally posted in my character's journal))

Private Thoughts for Private Growth )

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ACTIVE CHARACTERS [11.20.
2018
]

ACTIVE )
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Example Journal Entry - My Character [info]ethangiroux [06.09.
2018
]
OOC: Originally posted in my character's journal))


beating hearts baby
baby is this love for real?
beating hearts baby
let me in your arms to feel
beating hearts baby
the beating of your heart, baby
beating hearts baby
the beating of your heart, baby
you, you want nothing to do with me
you, you want nothing to do with me
i, i don't know what to do with you
cause you don't know what you do to me
baby is this love for real
let me in your arms to feel
the beating of your heart, baby
the beating of your heart, baby
beating hearts baby
baby is this love for real?
beating hearts baby
let me in your arms to feel


I will always get the side eye. I am known as the man who, at over six feet tall, sings in the IDF closet while programming switches. Yes, yes, yes. I am very aware that singing in a closet, especially to extremely pop infused music can call one's masculinity into question- but do you know what? I don't give a fig what anyone thinks! IDF closets are my happy place and I really do love listening to Head Automatica! Perhaps what is really scaring my employees is when I suddenly come sashaying out of the IDF closet, shoulders pumping up and down, expression serious, singing at full volume, snapping my fingers, hips shaking in rhythm, then I start to lead with my hips as I dance toward them -- honestly, their facial expressions are quite entertaining. How I manage to keep a serious expression while singing at the top of my lungs baby is this love for real, let me in your arms to feel is all due to years of practice. The things my employees endure under my employ.

I've once tried to cheer up one of my employees by knocking their paperwork off their desk and singing "If I Were a Rich Man" from Fiddler on the Roof. Oh, did I snap my fingers and shimmy? You bet I did! Her eyes went so wide. She certainly didn't look so down after that! She looked puzzled, but I got a laugh and a smile! I have found in the past year that goofiness and laughter will always be the best medicine. Two years of my life were sucked away by depression and the loss of my father, and my father of all people would not have approved. I also ran into a woman that I never got the name of. Just a random conversation in Chicago one day on the street. Her aura was so overpoweringly joyful. I asked her what her secret was. She said,

My mom always told me, love, don't dwell on the bad. If you feel like you have to, fine. You have 30 minutes to think about it, let the emotions run through you, then after that 30 minutes is up, let it go. Why? Because worrying ain't ever fixed anything. Action fixes things. So what's moping going to do but make you old before your time? LIVE! Don't let ANYONE steal your joy. It's YOURS! Grab it and hold it tight.

Those words hit me so hard that I thought about them non-stop for days, weeks, months. And that's how I choose to live my life now. 30 minutes, then it's time to move on. Life has to be lived and it's my joy. Mine. I will let no one and no thing steal it.

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Example Journal Entry - My Character [info]marilenevaleri [11.06.
2017
]
OOC: Originally posted in my character's journal))



Fuck big hair and humidity.

The hair cut was needed, but it probably will just get big again anyway. I just can't see myself going bald. It's so hot! My Canadian skin is dying!

TGIF;

I've got to try leaving the apartment this time. Some friends of mine don't consider work to be "getting out", but I talk to plenty of people at the bar. And, not everyone finds my overly large comic book collection to be bizarre. In fact, I had a guy come back to my apartment and he was elated that I was a fan of Sex Criminals. (For the uninitiated, that really is a comic book series). Where some women have their quirks like useless designer bags and clothing, I just happen to be extremely imaginative and love super heroes. I have also seen the new Wonder Woman movie three times so far. It's that damned good.

In a prior life, I'm pretty sure I was a school marm. I may still have some of these qualities, but I prefer smoking weed and getting falling down drunk -- though the latter I have tried to avoid. Fastest way to end an engagement, get really drunk and get caught flirting with an ex. Not my most shining moment, but I can't claim to have been the most rational and smart human being at the time. Commitment might not be my strong suit. I guess I just liked the comfort of someone around at night, maybe in the morning, but didn't like having to owe someone what goes on in my head and soul. It just seems so...vulnerable. Yes, I have been told it might be because I hadn't completely healed from the horrible things that happened to me in my past, but maybe I'm just built this way. A person who just makes small connections.

I think I've come a very long way. I used to be drunk and high on the daily. I looked like a Misfits groupie with a chip on my shoulder who took the emo stage into my early twenties. Growing past that has been one of my biggest achievements. There isn't anything wrong with not wanting to commit. I sometimes still miss him, but maybe I'm just feeling guilty for breaking him the way I did. But I also enjoy the freedom again. Strangers are more comfortable and no strings attached is much more comfortable. I just can't deal with having to see someone else's life shattered because of me.

Guess that's why comics make better people.

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Narrative - Monday, October 23rd, 2017 - My Character [info]dresdentyrrell [11.06.
2017
]
OOC: Narrative - Monday, October 23rd, 2017 - My Character [info]dresdentyrrell My character was picked for a "War on Drugs" plot in a motorcycle gang. The narrative is the plot he was given played out.
Originally posted in his journal ))



Narrative - Monday, October 23rd, 2017 - Deadly Letter )

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Scene: [info]avaroseline Originally Posted at [info]thepitsofhell [11.06.
2017
]

[info]avaroseline & [info]shadesofailbe (MY CHARACTER IS: [info]avaroseline )
The Hospital
PG
I wanted to see something that's different,
something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be anything different,
everything you would change in me.


She actually had been sitting there for an hour and half by now, just staring out into the sky, thinking )

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INACTIVE CHARACTERS from [info]hellsreapers [07.12.
2017
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